Monday, June 21, 2010

Putting it in perspective...

Yesterday I was very disappointed in myself. I stepped on the scale and still saw the number 278. I thought that the weight should come off faster. Wasn't I doing everything I should? What am I doing wrong? This morning I stepped on the scale and saw the same number give or take a few ounces...well it was more like "give" a few ounces but probably because of the water I drank. I have been keeping a log of my weight loss in a little notebook. I keep it in my purse along with my "big" pictures of myself so that I can pull it out any time I need to. I calculated my weight loss in weeks and discovered this: Since Ty was born a year ago I have lost 41 pounds and since I started really trying to loose weight on May 2nd I have lost twenty. Today marks about seven weeks I have been actively dieting which calculates to about 2.85 pounds lost per week. When I saw those numbers I didn't feel to bad. I think about a two pound weight loss per week is healthy. What do you guys thing?

Yesterday was Fathers day! I was to go to my dads house and have a BBQ. I bought chips and cheese dip and fruit and a yummy chocolate peanut butter desert. In my head I said to myself on the way to my dads "Ive done so well, I'm going to eat whatever I want today." Something in my head told me I shouldn't but it was a true battle. Before I got there I pulled out the "big" pictures in my purse and looked at them. It was then that I realized that I couldn't eat whatever I wanted that day. So instead of pigging out on the chips and desert, I enjoyed watching my dad pig out on all his fathers day treats while I consumed my Texas cantaloupe I brought. I skipped desert and instead had a cup of coffee. Because I made those choices I allowed myself to have a baked potato with my steak. It felt really good to stay on plan.

I realized that if I am going to loose the last 128 pounds that I have to loose then I can not have those days ware I think I can eat whatever I want because I deserve it. Instead I will treat myself to tiny things like a baked potato or corn on the cob...or a cup of chocolate coffee. (yummy!)

I do need to get some more recent pictures of myself here on the blog and in my purse. It really is a big tool for me to be able to look at myself and not justify my bad eating habits. I am proud of myself but the truth is I am still very obese.

Twenty pounds has brought on some good changes for me. My feet have almost entirely stopped hurting. My "sexy jeans" are almost comfortable while sitting and I am waring them more and more, and my circulation in my legs is improving.

What a hard road this is.

10 comments:

Annjeri said...

You are doing such a great job sis!! I am very proud of you.

Yesterday, I felt proud of myself during dinner because I asked for a smaller backed potato, I didn't put butter on my corn, and then I asked for a small peice of dessert. I think for all of us it has to do with choices like you were talking about in your blog.
For me, I am tired of having the mentality where it is either all or nothing. I either eat my life away, or I completely take everything that is bad out of my diet. I am finally coming to the point where it is about choices--choices to eat smaller portions and not get seconds, and choices to take a few bites of dessert every once in a while, which is ok.
Keep up the good work.
Love ya,
Sis

beccasfamilyof5 said...

Good things take time. I had my last son in September and started my diet in October. I started at 290lbs and I have now lost 53lbs and it is taking time but each little benchmark is a positive step forward.

I am aiming for 8lbs loss per month and keeping it realistic with that. 2lbs a week is a healthy loss and the slower you lose it, the more likely you are to keep it off.

Some weeks will be better than others and I find I have to "allow" myself room to swing on the dial. A large meal later in the day, excess liquid, even "that time of the month" can make a huge difference.

You are doing great so don't be disheartened, I have been where you are and though it's frustrating when you can stay the same weight for 3 weeks (yes, I had it that bad) it can take time for your body to catch up and change. I like to think of it that I'd rather have my body adjust than have flapping sagging skin where the fat was.

I am winning the battle. I have every faith in you doing the same.

We still have a long way to go and I am very confident we can do it.

All My Monkeys said...

Yay to you for celebrating every step, accomplishment, milestone. You made great choices, and I'll agree, those choices aren't always easy (and to me the thought of "never being able to eat whatever I want" is a hard one to accept.) BUt the feet thing is GREAT! It makes such a difference in quality of life! Not worth an afternoon of yummy stuff, imo. Great job!!!

birthmothertalks said...

I think you are doing really great. I have been stuck at 20 lb weight loss. But I have gained and then lost it back. I think staying at the same weight isn't bad because you can celebrate in the maintaining of the weight. I agree that we shouldn't make bad choice and think that we deserve it. However, we can choose to eat smaller portions and choose the sweet stuff less often. Keep up the good work.

mak'n Changes said...

I have a little song for you..."you're the meaning in my life, you're the inspirations!!" Ha Ha! Thats what came to me when i read your post.... You really are very inspiring....I sure love you bek!

cindie

Lerin said...

I've been too sad to update my blog!! :(

Anonymous said...

you're doing a great job! keep it up! and 2.85lbs a week is excellent!

Mommy2Four said...

It's my favorite part of losing weight..... getting to go shopping in my own closet! You're doing great! Keep it up!

Anonymous said...

You give me such motivation!!! I pulled out a skinny picture and a recent not so skinny picture and stapled them in my weight loss journal. Thanks for all the motivation!!! Your my hero!!!

Mary

Annalisa201 said...

2.85 lbs per week is miraculous for most honey! Don't you love perspective :) I'm glad you were able to take a step back and see the big picture. You have come SO FAR!!!! And you're doing excellent. Keep it up :)

And about the treats - there WILL be days you can eat whatever you want... advice: plan those days. Learn to bake wholesome and "clean" foods. I have a recipe for tiramisu (my fav dessert) that is a mere 130 calories per slice... and I only make a 9 slice cake (but there's 5 in our family so it doesn't last long). It's all about modification. Get creative. Don't deny yourself your right to pleasure in foods... then again, I haven't lost a blasted pound in months, so don't listen to me :) Keep doing what you're doing - I WOULDN'T CHANGE A THING!!!