A true test of will power is when company comes into town and all the yummy food is spread out because whats one of the most fun things to do when a bunch of family is around? That's right.....EAT!!
I was doing so good. I was watching my calorie intake. I still have not incorporated exercise but my eating habits were good. They were good until family came that is. Last night we had fried chicken, mashed potatoes and gravy, and (drum roll please) strawberry cheesecake. Now I didn't do that bad but I was disappointed in myself none the less. I took my Alli pill, ate two pieces of fried chicken and about a half cup of mashed potatoes and gravy, then sat back and watched everyone dig into the cheesecake.
I was doing good, I was thinking clearly until that dang cheesecake started talking to me. I didn't even know it could talk until it said "EAT ME!" I lost all sense of self control and dug my fork in and took a large bite. My best friend looked at me and said "would you like me to cut you a piece?" I knew I was in trouble so I got up and walked away from the table and told her no thank you.
I long for the day that I can have that piece of cheesecake and have it be OK but I am not there yet. If I ate the one piece then it would have given me permission to eat two pieces. I am still learning about moderation and when to say no, so until I do, the cheesecake is out. (can I cry now?)
Does anyone else get sad that they cant eat like everyone else? I actually feel sorry for myself because I cant enjoy food the way I used to. I keep telling myself that food is still enjoyable but just in smaller portions. Its hard to retrain my brain.
How is everyone else doing?