I'm standing in the kitchen tonight, feeling hungry, not wanting to grab that banana or those baby bell peppers. Instead I see the honey nut Cheerios, which were not intended for me to eat but for the children. My sensible mind tells me that I should grab the banana but my naughty mind tells me that I should have some honey nut cheerios. ARGH! Its such a mental game. My stomach doesn't know the difference between a banana or the cheerios. Eating one or the other would satisfy a growling tummy, but my mind would not be satisfied with the banana. So instead of grabbing the banana, I pour two handfuls of the cereal in my hand and eat it while standing in the kitchen. I'm thinking "I shouldn't be doing this but it tastes so good and it makes me feel so good. Stop now and it wont be to late. Stop it Stop IT STOP IT!" At about the third stop it and the third mouth full of cheerios I run to the garbage and spit them out half chewed up. Sigh!
You might say to me, "Its OK to have a little bit of the cheerios." But the truth is I had not done a very good of a job balancing my nutrition with the FOOT LONG sub I at at Subway today. The sub wasn't bad but the bread was. So because I ate all that sub, eating cheerios was not a wise decision.
I'm not giving up. I'm still trying. But its really really hard!