Saturday, May 22, 2010

Whats going on?

The scale is NOT moving. I'm feeling very defeated this morning. I'm not doing anything wrong. Last night at about nine o'clock I had a peanut butter and honey sandwich, but everything was measured, and it fell easily into my daily calorie count without going over. Yes it was probably to late in the day to eat but I don't think it was that bad. I also had a Sonic grilled chicken wrap yesterday and a bag of whole wheat sun chips but I counted all the calories. Even after the Sonic wrap I was still sitting at 1100 calories for the day so that is why I ate the sandwich. Not a GREAT choice but I hardly think it would be responsible for a zero weight loss on the scale.

Do you all think that my body is just freaking out on me because Ive changed my diet so drastically? Maybe its in that starvation mode right now and is holding on to everything.

So, in order not to sabotage myself I'm going to have to set a few rules. First of all, I'm going to stop weighing myself every day. Its just getting to hard to be let down every morning. Second, I'm going to not eat after seven o'clock at night no matter what. Third, I'm going to write down my measurements. I'm still debating on posting them here. It does make me more accountable and its no secret how big I am.

(ten minutes later)

After doing my measurements it is clear that I am BIG BIG BIG!! Here are my measurements. Ive decided that I could care less who knows. They are just numbers and do not define who I am inside. I'm doing smashingly well on this "Mayo Clinic" diet and I am proud of myself. However; Ill be more proud of myself when I'm not as big as a house. (grin)

My buttocks/butt/posterior: 60.5 inches
My middle/waist: 49.5 inches
Upper arm/flap/wiggly thing: 17 inches
Wrist: 7 inches
Calf/huge muscle thing/I have HUGE legs, I always have: 22 inches
Bust/boob/breast: 50.5 inches

Have I mentioned that I used to look like this?

Yes I know it was a LLLOOOONNNGGG time ago and I should let it go, but I cant seem to do that. I don't think its unreasonable for me to think that I can look that small again.

Sigh!

How is everyone else doing? Are you staying on plan? Do you get discouraged? Are you drinking your water and watching your sugar intake? This is hard you guys. Ive never felt so defeated and disappointed in myself before. I am proud that I have come this far. If I can do it you can do it, and that's the truth.

8 comments:

Jen! said...

Hi Rebekah! I've been following your blog for a while, but I've never commented, I'll try to get better ;) I too, need to lose weight. Right now I weigh more than I did 9 months pregnant with my first (I have had 4). I'm buying an elliptical from my parents, should have that in about 2 1/2 weeks!

My problem is I have used the kids and numerous pregnancies as an excuse for not losing weight. Also, I had 4 C-sections in 6 years so my body is just SHOT. But I have helped it along so that really isn't an excuse. I remember wearing a size 3 the summer before I met my husband and had a child. Now the scale is just going up, up, up....

I think you are very brave to do this blog and I think you are going to do great!

On a side note- I also think you are very brave about the whole adoption thing. I was adopted when I was 2 1/2 years old and it was the best thing to ever happen to me. The only difference is I had 2 other sisters who got adopted out to different families. It's been a journey. ;) Maybe I'll start my own blog!

All My Monkeys said...

I know it's hard. Keep going. You CAN do it.

Are you keeping a written food journal? That can help you see trends in your eating, and maybe changing those things to see if they are "stalling" your weight loss.

Are you exercizing? Even if you only have time for a 15 minute walk, a short walk is better than no walk.

Are you eating a good greakfast? I personally can't have carbs for breakfast, unless its oatmeal. Not even pb toast. (It affects my blood sugar too much which in turn affects my weight loss.) I hate eggs, so sometimes I'll take a slice or 2 of lunch meat and cheese and make roll-ups. Just the meat and cheese rolled up. Not in a tortilla. You could add tomato to that maybe? Or fruit? Some people react differently to different foods. Like for some, fruit slows their weight loss (or affect bloos sugar), or cheese, or dairy, or bread. So the food journal could help with that, too.

How much water are you drinking each day?

Don't get discouraged. How you are living today, was better than how you were living yesterday, even if the scale isn't reflecting it today. Maybe tomorrow you'll see 2 lbs come off. ((hugs))

Stacie said...

Yes, definitely stop weighing every day. They say to just weigh once a week, always at the same time of day. And count the numbers after the decimal, every 10th counts. I am getting back on track myself. I lost quite a bit about a year ago with a physician's help but due to job loss have to go it alone this time. So you won't beat yourself up so much, I have to tell you that the Dr. told me the time of night doesn't matter as long as you write down the calories. He said that if eating late at night made you fat, they would feed all of those in starving nations late at night to promote weight gain. Sounds crazy but I still lost weight no matter what time of day I ate. Keep it up and remember you are not alone!

mak'n Changes said...

My advice.....keep going. Be strong...its in u to do this....dig deep girl.
Cindie

Mommy2Four said...

Hey There...
Linzbaby1 from tlol again :) (Malik's Mommy)

In the past year, I've lost 80 pounds. It hasn't been easy, and I still have a bit to go, but I was facing lap band surgery and went this route. My Doctor did prescribe me a weight loss pill for the first few months to kick start things (Phentermine 37.5 mg), but it's been a pretty amazing year. I was a size 24, and now I'm a size 14.

So.... this is what worked for me. #1 Portion control. When I first started, my idea of a portion was totally outta wack. I bought a lot of 250 calorie or less Lean Cuisine meals to help retrain my idea of a portion. #2 Eat often. When you go longer than 3 - 4 hours without eating, your body goes into starvation mode, thinking it's not gonna get food. This slows your metabolism down. I eat between 150 - 250 calorie meal every 2 - 4 hours. I eat 1100 calories a day now (as my weight has come down, so has my daily calorie intake...) and I keep my fat under 25 grams per day. Once I'm at my goal, both of those things will increase to maintain. #3 Not eating late at night is not a good idea. When you sleep, your body is still burning calories. If you don't eat at night, your body is going 10+ hours with no food, putting it into starvation mode. Between 15 minutes - 1 hour before bed, I always eat. High protein, low fat... as protein takes longer for your body to burn. I'll do a lean chicken breast with a piece of bacon (precooked, Oscar Meyer bacon is 17 calories, 1.5g fat for one slice, and it gives really awesome flavor to things!) with a slice of fat free sharp cheddar melted on top.... it's awesome, and around 200 calories. It gives my body fuel while I'm asleep. #4 If I'm in a position where I can't find out the calorie/fat content, a good guideline is a measured cup. For a long time (before I got REALLY good at eyeballing it) I carried a cup measure with me. An adult stomach can hold approx 1 cup of food. If I'm eating more than that in one sitting, I'm overfilling it. #5 Get a hobby. Be it video games, swimming, photography, etc... it doesn't matter as long as it's fun to you and it keeps your hands busy. Before, my hobby was watching tv. While I watched, I'd eat. Now, I try to do things that keep my hands and mind busy.

I hope this helped! I know it's hard in the begining, but keep at it! It's so worth it!

Anonymous said...

I do weigh myself almost every day and at first I would get discouraged if I didn't see a lower number but now its just to keep an eye on myself and make sure I'm not gaining and if I dont gain then I'm happy....happier if I lose! I started the south beach diet the first of this year and after 3 weeks fell off the wagon. Recently my dr prescribed me phentermine (spelling?) and it hasnt worked..not sure if another medicine i'm on is counteracting it but its definitely frustrating. This blog will hopefully motivate me a little more now as well! Thanks.

Posting as anonymous since i havent posted on blogs before and need to figure out how to do it all yet!

sarah said...

Just a quick note : Mom2Four - the stomach can actually hold 4 to 8 cups of food. Not that you should actually EAT that much, but it does not only hold 1 cup. Just thought I'd clarify that :)

Annjeri said...

Hey sis, I hear you. I know that it is hard when you do not see weight come off. I think you are on the right track with not eating too late. They say you should allow your body a certain amount of time to digest the food before you even go to bed. Also, if you get your pidometer, that might help you to walk a little more or something. Love you.
By the way, I do love your page. It looks great. ;-)
Sis