Gone forever

I've definitely been very challenged lately. If I'm not careful, I definitely could let life circumstances get in the way of my weight loss, and I deathly feel like I have lately. 

I let my insecurities control me a lot of times. For some reason I feel like I can't move forward unless I know what's going to happen in the future. But the reality is nobody knows what's going to happen in their future and I'm trying to let that go and just live in the now. 

I have to remember where I've come from. I remember being as big as I was in the picture above. There was no way I could chase my kids if they were going to run into the street and hurt themselves. There was no way I could move my body faster than a walk.I could hardly bend over to shave my legs and my boobs were so big that I couldn't clap my hands in church.I remember laying down in bed and actually hurting to lay down. When I was in bed and I needed to turn from one side to the other it actually took my breath away.I couldn't fit in booths at restaurants. And I couldn't shop in the normal sized women's clothing section that stores. It was definitely a miserable life. 

It's really important to remember where we've come from, and it's equally important to set goals to be better in the future. 

I won't give up.

Weight loss can be a lonely journey.

I recorded this video last night on my way to the gym. I felt very lonely and on my own on this journey to get healthy. Sometimes it feels like everybody else in the world is having fun and I'm always restricted. Here's my thoughts on that check out my video.http://youtu.be/W8DngQ3Fhd0

A topic of conversation.

A topic I would love to discuss: since my weight came to a stand still for over a year, despite me exercising six days a week and eating clean foods 90% of the time, I started trying to change things up and investigate the reasons why my weight plateaued. 

What I discovered was that I needed to eat more and from what I was reading I needed to strength train, and as I read further I was told that cardio was the worst way to burn fat. Ok seriously, I burned 133 pounds of fat with ONLY cardio so why am I being told that cardio is the worst and most ineffective way to burn fat?? This makes no sense to me and actually enrages me that the firness community would discourage people from actually getting up off there butts and doing something, even if it's "ineffective" cardio. Most people just sit on the couch and eat. At least we are doing something and if you look at my history, I lost 133 pounds doing Zumba!! I'm just frustrated. Any thoughts?

Frustrated!!

I don't know why I torture myself. I should not have stepped on the scale today. 188 is 4 pounds up from the beginning of the year. I am doing everything I'm supposed to be doing. I even upped my calories because my workouts are so intense from 1300 to 1500 a day to 1700 to 1800 today. Everyone kept telling me to eat more. So I am and I gain. Ugh! I started P90X last week. I'm just going to keep marching on. I know consistency works. I just can't figure out why loosing 130 pounds was so much easier than loosing these last 35. I could just scream this morning. I usually have my once a week cheat meal tonight. I think I might skip it. #needencouragement

The best headbands ever review....

I discovered the best headbands. My hair is curly so I'm constantly looking for a headband that will actually stay on my head during workouts or just on a day I want my frizzes to be held back. Finally I found these headbands. I recorded a review on them below.  I used the code "mamalaughlin" to get 20% off.