Its almost midnight here. Ive been up for most of the night with my son who has the croupe. Ive wanted to blog here for a couple weeks but just have not found the time or energy.
Ive been feeling pretty good about myself. I get lots of compliments about my weight but I'm finding that these sweet comments are making me get a little to comfortable. I'm still weighing in at 228. In the past two weeks I have packed my entire house, moved and then unpacked. With all that busy business I had not exercised or eatin as well as I normally would have. So, because Ive gotten lax, I haven't lost or gained a thing. That is very frustrating to me and it makes me mad at myself. I should be thankful that I'm the same weight since Ive allowed myself to eat regular lasagna and garlic bread, crackers, Chick-fil-A, and I'm sure a few other foods I should not have eaten.
I had my son take pictures of me today. I had on my favorite pair of jeans and a shirt that I thought looked good. It blew me away when I saw the pictures. I truly think I look horrible. I know I should give myself some credit, after all, Ive lost about ninety three pounds....and....im less then ten pounds away from 100 pounds lost....but I cant seem to give myself a break. I still have seventy five pounds to go. I cant afford to get lax or become complacent. Ive started exercising again (ZUMBA!!!!) and I am trying hard to get back on plan (1400 calories per day).
In order to be true to myself and to all my readers, here are a few pictures of me.
I would love to just post this first picture because it is the only one that is half way flattering....
but I will be a big girl and hold myself accountable...
with these two extra fluffy and very unflattering pictures.
Id rather post pictures like this...because then you cant see my fluffiness. LOL
So that's me and my new body shots. I'm trying to stay positive. I have five new pairs of jeans hanging in my closet (that I LOVE) just waiting for me to squeeze my big butt into. I predict that if I can get ten to fifteen pounds down, then these cute Old Navy Jeans will fit me (they are size 17's).
I'm hoping by posting these pictures it will remind me that I cant quit. I'm hoping that these pictures remind me that I still have to keep moving forward. At the same time I am doing my best to love myself for who I am, and what I am becoming....slowly...and at a snails pace...but Ill get there.