Saturday, March 12, 2011

Reality check!!

Its almost midnight here. Ive been up for most of the night with my son who has the croupe. Ive wanted to blog here for a couple weeks but just have not found the time or energy.

Ive been feeling pretty good about myself. I get lots of compliments about my weight but I'm finding that these sweet comments are making me get a little to comfortable. I'm still weighing in at 228. In the past two weeks I have packed my entire house, moved and then unpacked. With all that busy business I had not exercised or eatin as well as I normally would have. So, because Ive gotten lax, I haven't lost or gained a thing. That is very frustrating to me and it makes me mad at myself. I should be thankful that I'm the same weight since Ive allowed myself to eat regular lasagna and garlic bread, crackers, Chick-fil-A, and I'm sure a few other foods I should not have eaten.

I had my son take pictures of me today. I had on my favorite pair of jeans and a shirt that I thought looked good. It blew me away when I saw the pictures. I truly think I look horrible. I know I should give myself some credit, after all, Ive lost about ninety three pounds....and....im less then ten pounds away from 100 pounds lost....but I cant seem to give myself a break. I still have seventy five pounds to go. I cant afford to get lax or become complacent. Ive started exercising again (ZUMBA!!!!) and I am trying hard to get back on plan (1400 calories per day).

In order to be true to myself and to all my readers, here are a few pictures of me.
I would love to just post this first picture because it is the only one that is half way flattering....

but I will be a big girl and hold myself accountable...

with these two extra fluffy and very unflattering pictures.

Id rather post pictures like this...because then you cant see my fluffiness. LOL


So that's me and my new body shots. I'm trying to stay positive. I have five new pairs of jeans hanging in my closet (that I LOVE) just waiting for me to squeeze my big butt into. I predict that if I can get ten to fifteen pounds down, then these cute Old Navy Jeans will fit me (they are size 17's).

I'm hoping by posting these pictures it will remind me that I cant quit. I'm hoping that these pictures remind me that I still have to keep moving forward. At the same time I am doing my best to love myself for who I am, and what I am becoming....slowly...and at a snails pace...but Ill get there.

10 comments:

Kelly said...

nice pics...lookin' great! love the picture of you and your son...so cute! -kelly

Marsha said...

I think when you look at photos of yourself you are more critical (at least I am on my photos) but others can truly see the amazing results. You are doing great and to maintain during a stressful move is fantastic.

Can't wait to see you in the new jeans and to also celebrate the 100 lb milestone with you!

Nikki said...

You are looking great but you have to keep going. I like the idea of having future jeans in the closet. I think I will try that. Then first thing in the morning there they are reminding me of my goal!! Thanks for a great post and such a great idea. :) Nikki

Nati @ I will praise Him said...

You're looking great! Don't be so hard on yourself!!!!

Anonymous said...

Awesome progress!!!

Rebekah said...

You look amazing, Rebekah! Drink in the compliments, but don't stop - keep going and pushing toward your goal. You'll make it!!

Ashley said...

Use the compliments to fuel the fire Rebekah! And I just want to point out how flat your tummy looks in the front picture! You are doing amazing. I've been following since you were atleast in the upper 270's and here you are at 228!! And I am still at the same spot I was. Way to go!

Melrose said...

Keep going Rebekah! We're all rooting for you!

Anonymous said...

you look fantastic! i'll just say this: if you gained all 100 lbs back (heaven forbid!!!!!) but lets just say you did,,,,, you would look at those pictures and say DAMN! I looked good! what the heck was I talking about! It may not be where you will be in another year from now.... but HOLY COW becky, you are a TOTAL hottie!!!

love you
cindie

Renea Flaishans said...

I keep checking back to see how you are doing. Where have you been? I hope you are having a good week. Keep up the great work!