Thanksgiving and eating...

I'm still sitting at 200 pounds. Actually this morning I weighed in at 200.4. I'm still struggling with getting started full time again with my weight loss. There are a lot of things that play into that, like my hours at work (no time to cook when you get home at six thirty) and a boyfriend (we talk every night after the boys go to bed and I used to exercise during that time).

My solution to those two things is in the works. I decided to ask for different hours at work and that would mean that instead of working four ten hour days and getting Thursdays off every week, instead I would work five days a week and extend my evening time with my boys and have more time to cook. The solution to my other problem (and I mentioned my boyfriend but it really has nothing to do with him) is that I used to exercise in the evening...and now I just need to get off my lazy butt in the morning and do my work outs then.

Loosing these last fifty pounds is going to really take planning on my part. Ive started night eating again (I wake up and have two pieces of diet bread with jelly on them and a small cup of milk). I know that I have not lost anymore weight because I'm eating to many calories. If I would just eat more healthy and balanced in the day then I would not wake up hungry and "think" I need to eat my jelly toast.

The good news is that over the past year and a half that Ive lost over 100 pounds, I think I have developed healthy eating habits and so it has kept me loosing (slowly) weight.

Thanksgiving is just around the corner. If I had my way I would completely skip this holiday. I don't eat most of the food anyway and really....eating is just not something I do for pleasure anymore. I do not plan on allowing myself any special foods. I will make an exception for a little fruit salad and possibly a small bit of mashed potatoes and gravy...but that's it....no pie for me. LOL And I don't feel bad about it...truthfully...I would feel bad if I ate it and its just not worth working extra hard the next week to get the stinking pumpkin pie off my butt.

So that is where I stand right now. Still at 200 (ugggg) and still trying to find my new motivation to get the rest of the weight off.

Until next time!!

Slow going

I did not imagine that this weight loss journey would take me so dang long. In May I will be approaching the two year mark. I keep telling myself that it took fifteen years and five babies to put on all this weight, so certainly taking two years to loose it all isn't too unreasonable.....right????

I am back to feeling frustrated with how slow I'm taking the weight off. I looked back to what I weighed at the end of February (that was nine months ago) and since then I have lost about 37 pounds. If you divide that into nine months then I have lost approximately 3.7 pounds per month. According to what I have "heard," that's a healthy weight loss. After I calculated those numbers I did feel better about myself.

So here is the big news!!!! I actually broke the two hundred mark and got down to this....

But then a few days later after making some bad food choices I went up to this...
And then after some more hard work I started going back down to this.....And as of today I sit at about this weight....There are days that my weight goes up or down by a whole two to two and a half pounds. Its very frustrating and here is how I feel about that.....
This is hard work. I'm not exercising anymore. My life has changed and I seem so much more consumed with other things that I don't take time to exercise. I really really do want to change that. I know that it would help me feel better about myself and the weight would come off easier. I know I am still loosing but It doesn't seem the same. I need motivation...I need new jeans because mine are to big again(so random)....I need a fresh start. Any ideas??????

I only have fifty pounds to go. It seems so silly seeing as how I already lost the first 119..but now I find myself looking for quick fixes. I have not tried anything but I see commercials for "slimquick" and other things and I wonder if they would work or If I would just be wasting my money. I know what I am doing is working but I'm just needing a new perspective. Maybe you all could help me?

Finding my groove

Its been about a year and four months since I started this journey. Ive lost 116 pounds. That's really a lot to be proud of but the past two months have been harder for me. I stopped exercising....and I am so upset with myself for that. BUT....I have not gained any weight and that is purely because I did not change my eating habits. The scale continued to go down (slowly) but I started feeling fatter. Its a really weird feeling to know you weigh less but you feel all flabby. I knew it was because of my non-exercise. So tonight I had had enough. I had folded up my Total Gym about two months ago to get it out of the way but tonight I set it back up and actually worked out. I'm going to try and do a routine at least three times a week. I am basically starting from scratch so I know I will be sore tomorrow.

Here is a picture of me that was taken last week at work. I am wearing a size 1x shirt and a size 14 jeans.

Another great triumph for me is that just a week ago I was able to put on and wear comfortably my class ring. I have not been able to even squeeze it on my finger for over ten years. If you look close I have it on in the picture above. You can also see my shake cup in the background. I purchased the new "magic bullet" and absolutely love it. One of my big problems is that eating is really a hassle...so I wont eat but then I will get hungry and feel sick and weak. With the bullet I can mix a protein shake and take it to work and its really brainless food for me.

Here are my measurements as of today. I compared it to the last time I measured (in May) and I have lost about an inch every ware. Its such slow progress...but at least its progress.

Waste-41 inches

Buttock-48.5

Bust-41 (I purchased and can wear a 38 D)

Calf-18

My weight has not changed. I teater between 202-203.8 lately. I know that when I start consistantly exercising and stop cheating here and there (darn dating) then it will fall below 200 pretty quickly.

Until next time!!!!!!

almost

six

six is my number. I have six pounds to go to weigh under 200 pounds. I can't believe this!!!!

Thank you Carrie for the pictures......

My new way to skinny...

Oh Zumba how I loved thee...but I needed a break. LOL I still love Zumba but I admit I have not done it in about a month. Let me show you what I have been up to instead. Yep that's right...Chuck Norris sold me on this thing and I needed a strength training way to get the final 55-60 pounds off my body. I knew (through research) that all my Zumba cardio was not going to do it for me and so I bought this. I LOVE IT, and I'm very sore. Its truly an amazing machine. My body is becoming smaller but my skin is sagging...so I am hoping that by building some muscle it will lessen this disgusting sagging skin look that I'm starting to get.

I must admit that I had a week that I feel back a little. I still didn't cheat with deserts but I did go on a couple dates and I ate restaurant food and I went up a few pounds....but NEVER over 214. I am not back to 212 again and I'm in a 15/16 size jeans in some styles and in other styles I'm in a 13/14 size jean. I couldn't be more thrilled with that.

Like I said I did go on a few dates. I re-dated a guy that I dated back in November. We had a great date and he finally came out and told me that he really really liked me but that my weight bothered him. The funny part of the story I'm about to tell you is that me and this guy had just watched the movie "Shallow Hal" together. (keep that in mind) Anyway, he took me aside and told me that I was the perfect girl for him but that my weight bothered him. I secretly thought that he was full of it as I looked at his balding head and the fact that he is 50 pounds overweight. He then went on to tell me that he would be willing to exclusively date me as long as he and I could loose weight together. He bought me a couple cook books (for us both to share) and a weight loss book. (as If I needed his help loosing weight since I have done all this by myself the past year...SHAAAWWWW). He THEN went on to tell me that if I made it too my goal weight of 150 then he would give me $500 for a new wardrobe (I know he has money so I know he wasn't lying).

I was blown away at this guys offer of love with the stipulation that I got "SKINNY," and for an added incentive he offers me hundreds of dollars to look beautiful for him....NO DOUBT so that he could show me off to his friends like I was some sort of prize. I went along with this little game of his as I text him my weight every morning and as he text me his weight. One morning I gained .6 ounces instead of loosing and he text me a sad face. LOL My heart sunk. A girl looses weight much slower then a guy and I feel like he had no idea that six ounces was simply water weight. I then realized that this Shallow Hal was not for me. Instead of me having to break it off with him he saved me the trouble by letting me know that he went back to his old girlfriend. The funny part is...he has been texting me to see how much weight I am loosing. This guy is keeping me on the sidelines until I get skinny. LOL Ill go along with it......take his $500 dollars and kick my Shallow Hal to the curb and find me a real man. How dare he wave his big bucks around me like that. I'm so much better then that.

Ill keep you updated on Shallow Hal.