Still quite large...

Yes its true, I'm till quite large but.....I'm feeling a bit skinnier lately. When I look in the mirror I can actually see my waste starting to take shape and my stomach seems to be shrinking instead of "hanging."

My current weigh in...wait for it....wait for it....is 254.2. IM SO THRILLED!! I need to take some measurements but I don't feel like doing that this morning. I have officially been at this "loosing weight" thing now for six months. I think that is the longest I have been able to stick to something without giving up.

Friday was really difficult for me. I work at a daycare center so of course we had all kinds of fallish parties going on (cant call them Halloween parties). Of course the goodies were plentifully. I wanted to hog out so bad. I don't know why but it was just a bad day for temptation. I grabbed one cookie and ate it. (It was SOOOO good) I decided to go back and grab a cup cake and two more cookies and bring them back to my desk. I put one cookie in my mouth, chewed it up, and felt to guilty so I spit it out into the trash. I did that with the cupcake and second cookie as well. I know it sounds weird to chew up food like that and spit it out but it works for me because I can have the sweet taste in my mouth (which satisfies me) but I don't have to deal with the guilty calories it would give me.

Above is a recent picture of me and my oldest daughter (isn't she precious?) I need to take some more full body photos. I am still in a 22 but I have a feeling that after another five to ten pounds I will be able to fit into my 20's.

So that's my update.

Document!

Still a borring post, but I need to document.

257.6

My birthday fell on the 19th. I told everyone that I wouldn't eat cake. Instead we had strawberry shortcake with angel food cake. It was yummy. I still ended up eating to much for my birthday. I made my home made sloppy joes and had a regular hamburger bun with it. I didn't sweat it to much. I did cry the day before my birthday because I had anxiety about gaining weight. I was also going through some pretty stressful stuff with my kids so I think that added to my emotions. All in all, I would probably be down a few more pounds but I did let myself enjoy the food a little more then normal on my birthday. It could have been worse. I think at one point this month I was actually at 255.7 but clearly I am not now. Regardless, I am happy that I am still in the 250's and we will just go with that.

I hope to have a more interesting and fun blog posting soon. Maybe its time for some measurements and pictures.

BIG NEWS!! And other things...

Big things have been happening to my body. Among other things I have FINALLY reached the 150's. I haven't been here in a very long time. Here is some proof.

I started out at a size 26 and now I comfortably fit in a size 22 even after my jeans are taken out of the drier and all shrunken up. I know you know what I'm talking about. LOL
I also wanted to share a few other things I am doing different. I am ashamed to say that all the work out videos are just not working for me. I am not motivated to use them and besides making my cool dance videos for my blog or dancing for my kids to make them laugh...the videos are not getting used. Soooooo...

I want you all to meet MARCY. (displayed by my four year old Skyler)


Please ignore my dirty kitchen. Marcy and I met on Craigslist the other day. She said I could have her for forty dollars. I was so excited about starting an exercising relationship with her that I forked out the forty bucks and brought her home. For the last week and a half we have been getting along very well. Here are my stats after my morning work out today. I love her!!!!!

I have also discovered this....

I started using it about a week ago and since then the weight has been dropping off a little faster. I took a picture of it so that you could see all the ingredients. Its not the best tasting stuff but it also comes in pill form. I think its working. It also has grapefruit and cactus in it and I think both of those are fat burning foods. I am really liking the results. The only place I have been able to find it is at Walgreen's. They were giving samples out and so I took enough of those to try it out for a week. I liked it so much that I invested the twelve dollars and bought a bag. For me it has about the same effect as the Ali pills did. WIN WIN!!!!

And lastly. I always like songs that can "cross over," so to speak. I know that Michael Jackson was an Icon and that its a little cheesy to bring him up again but....I'm so stuck on this song. It talks about making changes in your life. What really speaks to me is the line that says "I'm gonna make a change, for once in my life. Gonna feel real good gonna make a difference, gonna make it right......(and lastly) I'm starting with the man in the mirror, I'm asking him to change his ways"

For me its so true that I have to start making changes inside myself before I can start helping other people make a difference in their lives. I really want to "pass it on." I'm making great strides in bettering myself and this song is just so inspiring to me, not to mention if you actually watch this video. It breaks my heart, and modivates me to want to do more for others. I hope you can be inspired today to. God bless!!!