This blog...

I really think that posting on this blog is going to help me be a little more accountable and also your comments and knowing people are in this with me helps so much...so Im going to try and get on here more. I also need to start posting more pictures....one because its fun LOL...and two because it shows me how I look right now.

I am really bad at commenting back when people ask questions so Im going to try and be better at that. Annalisa201 asked me about my boyfriend, and Chuck. LOL Annalisa, no my boyfriend is not the one who wants a "skinny" women and will pay me 500 dollars when I get to 150; however, he still texts me and asks how much I weigh and If I still have a boyfriend. LOL Funny guy! Yes, I still use the total gym but not very often. I dont know why some things take and some things dont. Zumba was my best friend for so long but now I cant get back into it. I hope the treadmill takes like the Zumba did. I still have the Zumba if you wanted to buy it. It cost 100 (with shipping) but Id let it go for 55.

mommabear asked if 30 minutes of Zumba was good enough? Yes!!!!! Of course it is but most of the Zumba CD's are longer then 30 minutes. Actually, I have learned that you really only need 20-30 minutes of cardio for it to be effective...and most of the Zumba CD's were about 50 minutes (THATS FIFTY MINUTES OF PURE FUN THOUGH!!!!)

A few asked about my boyfriend. He is wonderful. He could really care less if I lost weight. He likes me just the way I am. Also....we have been dating for about seven months now and we are exclusive. WHOOP WHOOP!!

A few people have mentioned how frustrated you have been and how hard it is to work so hard at eating right and exercising and not see the scale move. Some people say not to weigh yourself every day, but I cant help it....it motivates me and it also reassures me that the scale isn't going UP!!!!

They have a new diet out called the HCG diet. It used to be where you could only get it through a doctor but now they sale it in....WALMART!!!! LOL Anyway, I was standing in line at the Walmart check out line and there was a fairly large looking couple behind me and they saw the HCG pills and started commenting on it. I could hear the lady telling the man that it was a GREAT diet and in literally melts your fat away. I nearly busted out laughing. Normally I dont say anything but this time I had to. Here is how the conversation went....

Me: So you heard that the HCG pills work hugh?


Lady: Oh yes, it melt your fat.


Me: Wow! So, do you know if it makes you follow a diet or do the pills do all the work?


Lady: Oh no....you HAVE to follow the diet and use the pills. I haven't actually tried them myself but I have a friend that does.


Me: Do you think that you could loose weight by just following the diet and not taking the pills?


Lady: (she laughs out loud) Yes, you are probably right.



I told her that I had lost 122 pounds and to not waste her money because there was no magic pill. Only hard work and perseverance will get you to a healthy weight. I am just so shocked about how many money maker diet pills there are out there. Its astounding and sad.

Thanks for your encouragment ladies. You modivate me. One more quetion, does anyone else have a "night eating" habit? If so do you have any suggestions on how NOT to eat in the middle of the night?

Fed up

I am so fed up with not loosing any weight. I'm very disappointed in myself. I'm at the same weight and to be honest I think I'm a few pounds up. I'm still under 200 but I should be way farther along then I am. Its time to go back to basics. Today I will take my notebook to work and start logging every bite taste and meal. I'm also waiting on my tax return because Im going to buy a treadmill. I don't think I can go back to Zoomba although I loved it for so long...it doesn't fit into my busy lifestyle anymore. A treadmill will give me a good 30 minute work out before work and Ill be good to go. The total gym is amazing as well because (again) its a quick work out.
(Id love to sell my zumba if someone is interested)
So, its good that I'm fed up. I still have been pretty good with my eating but I again am struggling with eating in the middle of the night and unfortunately Ive gotten lazy and instead of making a healthy meal, Ill eat a bowl of cereal (I would have NEVER done that before).

Anyway, I'm headed to work but I know Ive been absent from this blog and you sweet ladies have been checking on me. I really need motivation. I need to get started again.....Its really hard!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ill be back.

After Thanksgiving weigh in...

Thanksgiving food was so delicious. I ate a little bit of everything on the table. I also at a quarter inch piece of pumpkin pie with whipped cream and really enjoyed myself. I thought for sure I would gain weight because of that but the past two mornings I am weighing in at 199. I am thrilled about that. If I can make it through the end of the year without gaining any weight then I'll be so happy. How did everyone else do?

Thanksgiving and eating...

I'm still sitting at 200 pounds. Actually this morning I weighed in at 200.4. I'm still struggling with getting started full time again with my weight loss. There are a lot of things that play into that, like my hours at work (no time to cook when you get home at six thirty) and a boyfriend (we talk every night after the boys go to bed and I used to exercise during that time).

My solution to those two things is in the works. I decided to ask for different hours at work and that would mean that instead of working four ten hour days and getting Thursdays off every week, instead I would work five days a week and extend my evening time with my boys and have more time to cook. The solution to my other problem (and I mentioned my boyfriend but it really has nothing to do with him) is that I used to exercise in the evening...and now I just need to get off my lazy butt in the morning and do my work outs then.

Loosing these last fifty pounds is going to really take planning on my part. Ive started night eating again (I wake up and have two pieces of diet bread with jelly on them and a small cup of milk). I know that I have not lost anymore weight because I'm eating to many calories. If I would just eat more healthy and balanced in the day then I would not wake up hungry and "think" I need to eat my jelly toast.

The good news is that over the past year and a half that Ive lost over 100 pounds, I think I have developed healthy eating habits and so it has kept me loosing (slowly) weight.

Thanksgiving is just around the corner. If I had my way I would completely skip this holiday. I don't eat most of the food anyway and really....eating is just not something I do for pleasure anymore. I do not plan on allowing myself any special foods. I will make an exception for a little fruit salad and possibly a small bit of mashed potatoes and gravy...but that's it....no pie for me. LOL And I don't feel bad about it...truthfully...I would feel bad if I ate it and its just not worth working extra hard the next week to get the stinking pumpkin pie off my butt.

So that is where I stand right now. Still at 200 (ugggg) and still trying to find my new motivation to get the rest of the weight off.

Until next time!!

Slow going

I did not imagine that this weight loss journey would take me so dang long. In May I will be approaching the two year mark. I keep telling myself that it took fifteen years and five babies to put on all this weight, so certainly taking two years to loose it all isn't too unreasonable.....right????

I am back to feeling frustrated with how slow I'm taking the weight off. I looked back to what I weighed at the end of February (that was nine months ago) and since then I have lost about 37 pounds. If you divide that into nine months then I have lost approximately 3.7 pounds per month. According to what I have "heard," that's a healthy weight loss. After I calculated those numbers I did feel better about myself.

So here is the big news!!!! I actually broke the two hundred mark and got down to this....

But then a few days later after making some bad food choices I went up to this...
And then after some more hard work I started going back down to this.....And as of today I sit at about this weight....There are days that my weight goes up or down by a whole two to two and a half pounds. Its very frustrating and here is how I feel about that.....
This is hard work. I'm not exercising anymore. My life has changed and I seem so much more consumed with other things that I don't take time to exercise. I really really do want to change that. I know that it would help me feel better about myself and the weight would come off easier. I know I am still loosing but It doesn't seem the same. I need motivation...I need new jeans because mine are to big again(so random)....I need a fresh start. Any ideas??????

I only have fifty pounds to go. It seems so silly seeing as how I already lost the first 119..but now I find myself looking for quick fixes. I have not tried anything but I see commercials for "slimquick" and other things and I wonder if they would work or If I would just be wasting my money. I know what I am doing is working but I'm just needing a new perspective. Maybe you all could help me?

Finding my groove

Its been about a year and four months since I started this journey. Ive lost 116 pounds. That's really a lot to be proud of but the past two months have been harder for me. I stopped exercising....and I am so upset with myself for that. BUT....I have not gained any weight and that is purely because I did not change my eating habits. The scale continued to go down (slowly) but I started feeling fatter. Its a really weird feeling to know you weigh less but you feel all flabby. I knew it was because of my non-exercise. So tonight I had had enough. I had folded up my Total Gym about two months ago to get it out of the way but tonight I set it back up and actually worked out. I'm going to try and do a routine at least three times a week. I am basically starting from scratch so I know I will be sore tomorrow.

Here is a picture of me that was taken last week at work. I am wearing a size 1x shirt and a size 14 jeans.

Another great triumph for me is that just a week ago I was able to put on and wear comfortably my class ring. I have not been able to even squeeze it on my finger for over ten years. If you look close I have it on in the picture above. You can also see my shake cup in the background. I purchased the new "magic bullet" and absolutely love it. One of my big problems is that eating is really a hassle...so I wont eat but then I will get hungry and feel sick and weak. With the bullet I can mix a protein shake and take it to work and its really brainless food for me.

Here are my measurements as of today. I compared it to the last time I measured (in May) and I have lost about an inch every ware. Its such slow progress...but at least its progress.

Waste-41 inches

Buttock-48.5

Bust-41 (I purchased and can wear a 38 D)

Calf-18

My weight has not changed. I teater between 202-203.8 lately. I know that when I start consistantly exercising and stop cheating here and there (darn dating) then it will fall below 200 pretty quickly.

Until next time!!!!!!

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